I joined the Army in 1986 aged 16 years old, what an adventure and I was totally excited about what the military could offer me.

I loved my job and quickly went up the ranks, but unknown to me every operation I went on inprinted negative emotions in my head which I carried for over 20 odd years. When I was discharged I spent alot of time in and out of private and NHS hospitals and all they seemed to do was up my medication and give me CBT because I was diagnosed with reactional depression.

In 2009 my amazing partner contacted Combat Stress as I was going down hill in a major way, in May 2010 I was diagnosed with PTSD and I felt relieved to know that I wasn’t the only one who felt the same emotions which I did.

Whilst attending Combat Stress I bumped into a gentleman who had started a charity called Fishing For Heroes and in September 2010 Talking2Minds was pointed out to me and I thought I would give it a go as I would have bungee jumped naked if that had helped with my symptoms!

I sent an e mail to Talking2Minds and in November 2010 I attended a change course, I turned up feeling extremely skeptical and apprehensive, to be honest I was an emotional wreck and I would have driven off if it wasn’t for one of the practioners spotting me sat in my car chain smoking outside the offices and offering me a ‘wet’, I declined the on the first offer as I only drink ‘brews’!

To cut a very long story short I was asked what I wanted out of the course on day one, I answered “To be able to function” (I couldn’t walk in strange places nor look after myself, i.e wash etc, plus many other things and to be honest I haven’t got the time to list them all!) Whilst on the course I dealt with deep down emotions and I can now function! What a fantastic feeling! I have now started on my journey to recovery and I am getting my life back. I am attending another change course this year with my partner and I am looking forward to meeting the Talking2Minds team again as they are all a massive inspiration to me as they have all been to similar dark places in their minds like I have.

I am now a functioning, smiling, happier, clean shaven man and I am looking forward to the rest of my life.

If you are in a dark place and not sure where to turn give Talking2Minds a bash, I still have a long journey to go on but I can now see the road ahead of me.

Kind Regards from a less troubled mind!